Once upon a time...

What happens when you can't keep track of a real diary.

Thursday, October 16, 2003

Well, here's a bright spot:
I'm going back to college!

I'm going to suck it up, and actually start college coursework again.

I needed something positive in my life, and this looks like a good starting point. I'm going to be going to Regis University, and I am going to get either my Computer Science Degree, or my Computer Networking Degree...

Sunday, October 12, 2003

These days bring back the Leonard Cohen, Pink Floyd, and sometimes even ye olde darkwave. I don't really have the energy for defiance at this point, but I'm sure it will return, a couple of nice hard industrial ranting on subjects such as isolation, emotional disconnection, et al. and I'll be well on my way to recovery, but...

It's not time for that yet. I'm not emotionally healthy at the moment, but I do continue on, with the knowledge that I will be.

Kelly continues to protest that she wants to be my friend, but won't talk to me. I'm sure that i will eventually have to give up on that prospect, but, that will take a while.

I lover her... God help me, I love her so much.

But she's gone - as she says, the person I married is dead. The person that returned to me is . . . different, and not a part of my life.